I arrive in Bangkok and haven’t had sex for the whole month I was in Australia. I used to get frustrated when I didn’t have sex, it was a similar feeling to not doing meetings or exercising, but that seems to have reduced greatly. Still, I’m in Bangkok. I have a phone full of numbers I have gotten from Tinder. I’m a handsome man. But I want a massage first before a date. I see a cute massage girl in the front of a shop and decide I want her hands all over me. I get naked and have no real desire to pay to fuck her, but she is persistent and keeps bringing the price down so I concede. I blow quick and then she goes back to massaging me. I figure it’s good to clean out the pipes and enjoy the massage.
I have a date a couple hours later. She is average, but young and nice, and I think it will be fun to get up in her. We talk about Phuket and she mentions many working girls there. I tell her many girls on Tinder proposition me for paid sex. “Really?” She says with a laugh. “I’m free”. I chuckle, but try not to make to big an issue of it and change the subject. Five minutes later I suggest we go and hang out in my apartment. She agrees. I walk her there. We walk inside. I put on some music, grab her and start dancing with her, she pushes in close, I grab her arse, she moans, clothes come off and I throw her on the bed. Don’t cum in me she says as I enter her.
I walk her back to the BTS just in time to meet my next date at Terminal 21 shopping centre. My next date doesn’t show so I head off to find some dinner. A hot women in her late twenties walks past. I stop her and tell her she looks nice. We chat for a bit and I invite her to join me for dinner. She agrees and we head off to the food court together. She is nice, but not particularly available for sex. I take her number and head home.
The next day I have another afternoon date. Again, average, but young and cute. We meet. I look at her and think it will be nice to put my dick in her. We have coffee, she agrees to come back to my place. I have to be quick as I have another date soon. I tell her I am meting friends. She won’t kiss me, resists my touches, won’t put her hand on my cock. I tell her I have to go in twenty minutes. She lets me kiss her neck, she pushes into me. I put my hand down her pants. “No” she says, but does nothing to stop me. I start taking my clothes off and then start taking hers off. “What are you doing?” She says. I smile and continue taking her clothes off. “We have to go soon.” She says.
“Yes” I agree as I take the last of her clothes off and move in between her legs. After five minutes I ask. “Can I come inside?”
“No.” She says. So I role her over onto her stomach, stroke until I am ready, pull out and rub my cock up and down her but little but cheeks as I come. We shower and I take her back to the BTS in time for my next date. My next date cancelled so I went home on my own.
The next day I had an afternoon date. She was average, but young and cute. We had coffee. I got a hard on so I put her hand on it. Her eyes got big. We finished our coffees and I suggested my apartment. She agreed. She didn’t want to fuck because she had her period. Half an hour later she agreed to me putting a towel on the bed. “Do you have a condom?”
“We don’t need a condom, you are on your period. You can’t get pregnant.” I said as I entered her. It was bloody and messy so I let myself cum pretty quick. I took her back to the end of the street and pointed her to the BTS.
The next day I had an afternoon date. But I went for a walk first to get some lunch. I stopped a pretty hot girl and told her she looked nice. We went for coffee. We were touching within ten minutes. In twenty minutes I invited her back to my apartment, she declined. I suggested a walk. We held hands and continued asking personal questions. I invited her back to my apartment. She declined, so I said. “Well I have to go back there. Maybe next time.” And took her number.
I walked off and met my date. She was hot and skinny. Awesome, a not average Tinder date, I thought. We went for coffee. She was a bit weird, but hot. She agreed to come back to my hotel. She said she was on her period and couldn’t have sex. I agreed and expected to be blowing in her in the next thirty minutes. We were on the bed. Half our clothes came off. She was perhaps the worlds worst kisser, but her body was hot and I was looking forward to cuming in her. She resisted the idea of sex. “OK, give me a blowjob then” I said as I got bored of trying to fuck her. And pushed her head down towards my cock.
“I will give you a headjob only with a condom.” She said.
“Really” I asked. “I suppose so.”
“I just have to go to the toilet first.” She said.
When she was in the bathroom I thought to myself. Do I really want a blowjob with a condom? There is no way I am ever seeing this girl again. It’s better for her and me if I decline. I got up and put my clothes on. She came out of the bathroom with a surprised look on her face at me being dressed. “I just remembered I have to meet my friend.” I said. I walked her to the end of the street and pointed at the BTS.
Back at home I messaged all the girls in my phone. A few agreed to meet me. I met one at the same café. She was average but had massive boobs and a nice smile. “I’m trying to be a gentleman and look in your eyes when we talk, but I can’t stop looking at your tits. They are lovely.” She smiled.
“I don’t want to have sex tonight.” She said genuinely. “You can message one of your other girls.”
“OK.” I said as I replied to Vicky who I had fucked in the arse last year.
Ten minutes later Vicky turned up and I said good bye to big tits and met Vicky in the street. We walked straight to my apartment. “It’s good to see you.” I said. “You look good. You have lost some weight I think.” Vicky was in her 30’s but had nice skin and was a good fuck. As we walked I watched her arse and remembered her lying on her front while I fucked her alternating from her pussy to arse and finishing in her bum.
We got into my apartment. I put on some music and let her settle then five minutes later pushed her on the bed and started giving her a massage and slowly taking her clothes off. When we were naked she said. “Condom.”
“I don’t have any.” I lied.
“I do.” She said.
“Ok. Go and get.” I said. She didn’t move so I went back to playing with her body and trying to rawdog her. “Condom” She said as she moved her hips away from my probing cock. I held her down and got the tip in. She resisted and got away. I held her down again. She resisted although made no move to get up and get the condom. I held her down forcefully. She stopped resisting. I pushed my cock into her.
I got her on front. I pulled my dick out of her pussy and pushed it in her bum. She resisted. I pushed it back in her pussy. I tried again. She resisted. “I’m going to come soon.”
“Don’t come inside me.” She said.
“I’m coming inside you. You choose. Pussy or arse.”
I tried again to stick in in her bum. She moved and I missed my shot. I held her down and got the tip in. She resisted hard. I held her down harder. She complied and I pushed all the way in and blew in her bum.
We got up, washed and dressed and I walked her to the BTS. I gave her a kiss good bye. “See you next time.” She said with a big smile. I walked home shaking my head.
I got home and watched some TV. My phone buzzed. It’s almost midnight. A girl called Prem wants to come over. I have never met her before, but she has a nice photo of toned abs on her Tinder. She gets to my apartment at about midnight. I put on some music and we dance. I grab her arse. She grabs my cock. Clothes come off and I push her on the bed.
“You have condom?” She says as I push my raw cock into her.
I blow in her, wipe myself off with a tissue and lie in bed. I’m tired. She gets up and pulls some food out of her bag and starts eating. I doze on and off while she eats. Thirty minutes later she says. “I’m going.”
“Ok” I say as I get up and go to put my shorts on. “I’ll walk you out.”
“No. It’s ok. I can walk myself out.” I open the door for her. “Good Bye”
I go to bed and sleep.
I wake up the next morning. Have I pushed it too far? I think. I need a meeting. I got up and did some stretches and meditated, coffee and writing and decided I needed to do some step work. I made a table in excel and listed my resentments and fears and personal relationship challenges. I wrote the causes, how they affect my instincts and my defects. After 40 minutes I felt really good and went to the Midday AA meeting at Ekamai. I think I need a break from dating.
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