You have served me well and I love you. I know you want to protect me with your repetition and I know the topics deserve your attention. But I want to be in love. I am choosing love. You will always be there for me when I really need you. You have a place to …
Goodbye Sweet Boy
The last time I saw him was the week before he passed. I had stopped seeing much of him. I blamed others for that, but mostly God. God had given me a pass. I was the one that was there for him when he first got sick. The one that considered his immediate needs rather …
A Program For Living
I’m a few months clean again - I feel like I have written that a few times on this blog. It was really hard to get any momentum being clean this time. The negative effects of my drug use have lessened since I committed to getting-clean-again. I relapse and nothing really bad happens, but I …
Another 12 Step Fellowship
A new fellowship! How many does he do? I feel a bit like the girl from fight club. I suppose I have just embraced the 12 steps. What’s one more going to hurt? In fact, I feel renewed and full of hope. I’m a newcomer again. At step 1 in a new fellowship - Workaholics …
Flushing Lucy
I did it again. I decided for various well thought out and calculated reasons that I should do another psychedelic journey. It was ok. A couple good things, a couple bad, no disasters thank God. Time to get clean again, but I still had 400 mics of Lucy and 25mg of 2CB – quite the …
I’ve Made A Commitment To Recovery. I Would Let To Many People Down
I had a friend come over who’s not in any 12-step fellowships (yet). He’s much younger than me and sees me as somewhat of a mentor (poor sap). He looks crestfallen as I meet him in my driveway. His head his tilted down, shoulders slumped, he smiles at me with a vacant look on his …
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Close To Relapse – Workaholics Anonymous
I’m getting close to 6 months clean. Workaholism has got me. This feels familiar. It was October last year, orders were pouring in. I was making 30K a month, but the resultant work load was high. I was tired, but pushed through. I had never made that sort of money and wanted to take advantage …
God Grant Me The Strength And Courage To Be An Honest Man
I’ve been following politics since the US election. At first glance it appears a civil war of left vs right, but the more I research the more I realise how utterly corrupt the system is. The establishment; political elite, mainstream media, big pharma, and big tech continue to put out information that is either a …
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My Mum Warned Me That LSD Was Dangerous And Would Cause Flashbacks
It’s a beautiful winters day outside and I have been putting in some good hours at work. I decide to finish off anything urgent and go for a walk. I get to the beach at about 10am and the chill is just starting to come off. The sun beats warm on my back, but the …
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Self-Respect
“Hi Henry” “You look stressed.” “It’s been one of those days. I had to call a mediation service in Gympie to respond to their letter initiated by Lydia. I was pissed at the wording of the letter implying that if I didn’t respond it would go to court. I give her full custody of the …
