About nine months ago when I stared to make some decent money and could actually save I decided I should learn about investing. I opened up a share trading account and a crypto trading account (well I already had that from buying vitamins), and an account at the Perth Mint for precious metals. The learning …
Where I am Now in Recovery
I reflect over the last couple of years and have come a long way. I went to the edge of sex and drug addiction and came back. I looked right over that edge and skated the rim, but by the grace of God never fell, never abandoned myself like I did in my younger days. …
Working with Others in DA.
There are tools in DA that involve working with others that I don’t use. I feel I am missing out on these, in particular the pressure relief groups and business meetings where you meet with the other members and go over your numbers (income, expenses, outstanding debt) and help each other with a plan moving …
I am a Debtor
I’ve been doing Debtors Anonymous (DA) again. I did 2 online meetings over the weekend and I like the way it changes my mind around money. Like reading nutrition books helps with your diet, but being a 12 step fellowship it also has that spiritual element. DA has a wonderful balance between the physical, emotional …
Powerless Over My Parents
I’m at step 9 again and as usual God has presented me with all the right opportunities to see my defects and accept them so he can remove them. It’s a painful surgery, no narcotics allowed. The theme that has developed this time round in the steps is moving on from my past life. I …
20 Years Sober – 90 Days Clean
“We should go the meeting on Sunday to celebrate your 90 days.” Says my wife from the passenger seat as we are driving along. I think how nice it is that she remembers, I realise it’s important to her. “Is Sunday 90 days?” I ask. “The 13th right?” “Yep, but some of the months have …
Blessed To Have a Program
I’m not entirely sure how clean I am, let me check my calendar, 13th March. I might remember it eventually. It doesn’t mean much to me. I haven’t celebrated 30 or 60 days this time. I have pretty much done everything against the culture of NA this time. However, I haven’t done anything in contradiction …
Another Run Through The Steps
*I deleted a few lines that were a bit personal. Resentments ResentmentDescriptionAfects MyDefects SE: Self Esteem - How I think of myselfP: Pride - How I think others view meFS: Financial Security - Basic desire for money, property, possessions, etc.PR: Personal Relations - Our relations with other peopleA: Ambition - Our goals, plans and designs for …
The Cycle of Addiction
A friend from NA who has been in and out of recovery for almost 10 years now has come to work for me. He will be a real benefit to my business, but I have some fears about his next relapse. We spoke about the terms of his employment, but I held off addressing what …
Through The Doorway
I’ve made it. My psychedelic ramblings and madness were not so mad. Like Bill Wilson high on Belladonna with his white light experience and then years later with the Oxford LSD trials. I’m not aggrandising psychedelics. My thoughts on these powerful medicines has never really waned. The irony is I’m an addict and they are …
Red Pill Recovery 