Social Acceptability Does Not Equal Recovery
As a recovering addict I got pretty close to that edge that meets addiction, both on drugs and sex, a few weeks ago. I not only got close, I walked right up to that edge, walked along it, did a little dance on it, and just about bungy jumped into it. But here I sit …
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I am clean almost a whole month without even trying, it’s just that I am travelling and don’t have the access to, nor will to find, any drugs. I am still in recovery. It’s been almost 6 months since I started taking psychedelics and there has been no progression of the disease. The drugs have …
Watching Ray Donovan last night and his wife was diagnosed with terminal cancer and he wouldn’t accept it and let her quit on finding a cure. I recently had a chat with my kids mum about the indignity my mum’s father went through when he had total renal failure and was happy to die, but …
Meaning of life is an interesting concept that fell on me like a tonne of bricks while depressed and in a state of dry addiction about 10 years ago. I had not been doing enough meetings and in my depressed state looked around at the life I had. I was in my early thirties, owned …
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Growing up as a child I believed in God because I was told that was the case, but then I also believed in Santa Clause. When I was about 13 and starting to form my own opinions on things I decided God was not real. I could see no proof of such a deity and …
When I took LSD in December 2017 for the first time since October 1999 I was most taken back by the fact it didn’t set off any obsession or compulsion to drink or take other drugs. Obviously I hoped it wouldn’t and had done my research to strongly suggest it wouldn’t, but to be high …
Continue reading “We Conceded To Our Innermost Selves That We Were Alcoholic”
I don’t want this blog to be about how to pick up girls, there are many blogs specifically for that, a few of which I will link bellow, but I wanted to create at least one post describing daygame and how it fits into my journey as a recovered alcoholic so I can reference it …
I’ve never paid much attention to who smokes weed, or takes pills or any drugs for that matter, in AA. I had only ever heard rumours that some members might, I didn’t care either way, as long as they told interesting stories of there recovery I didn’t give it any thought. But now I am …
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So I’m in Bali and I’ve had 4 weeks with no drugs. I had pushed it pretty hard taking acid about 8 times, DMT twice, MDMA once and weed a handful of times from mid December to mid January. I didn’t really try to get clean, although I did think it would be useful to …
Continue reading “Reflection After 4 Weeks and No Psychedelics.”
I was an only child and had an idyllic first three years and ten months. My parents were together and I remember being loved by both of them, there were plenty of family friends always around and later in life I was told by those that knew me what a happy, intelligent and funny little …
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